when your quarter life crisis starts turning into your midlife crisis

I often put my emotions into the playlists I make. Finding words and vibes that perfectly encompass the mood is an irresitable scratch to an itch. Lately I've been feeling the existential dread of growing older. Back pain, 3 day hangovers, forgetting, getting excited about a clean house, difficulty making new friends, not recognizing the person in the mirror, when coworkers are basically still babies, having absolutely no energy ever, and the daily grind of waking up, eating, going to work, sleeping, repeating. There's so much to get caught up in. Like it's enticing, it's tempting. You can get lost trying to fix your reality in daydreams. And I often do get stuck there.